tOkKa

-->> My webmaster recently posted commission • www.terrible2z.com/?p=538

..now open for a limited time !!

~ t

-->> I may turn feedback back on - on certain items that i upload.

Not that i am anticipating feedback or demanding it either.

I had to shut them off for a time on newer entries for sake of my own sanity.

I may not be able to respond right away if i DO turn commentary back on.

If it happens and i don't respond right away, please don't take it personal.

My negative experiences on DA over the years have made me all but near quit uploading and contributing to the site. My activity here is but a trickle what it used to be.

While i still somewhat regularly check out all the cool art here, i rarely give feedback myself.

Please understand these things and don't hold it against me.

I'm in a transitional period too - so there's a difficult balance to maintain all around.


Thanks for visiting my DA gallery, i  hope you enjoy what  you experience  here.




PLEASE DO NOT CONTACT ME THRU' THE DA P.M. SYSTEM !!

I WON'T GET YOUR MESSAGE !! !!


Try > tOkKAb2@terrible2z.com

or facebook me or what have you.


But again, i will not get your message from this website - so i beg you, please don't bother with the message system here.

Sorry, and thank you.

~ t

DO NOT CONTACT ME THRU' THE DA P.M. SYSTEM !!

I WON'T GET YOUR MESSAGE !! !!


Try > tOkKAb2@terrible2z.com

or facebook me or what have you.


But again, i will not get your message from this website - so don't bother.

Sorry, and thanks.
~ t

-->>> Hey -

i haven't left DA.

This is what i get for not checking messages and commentary regarding - people thinkin' i ditched.

I'm sorry i gave that impression.

i'll try to explain best as i can here :

As of 2010 i've been having to make my involvement here much more manageable.

Hm - I still compare D.A. to a "WAL-MART" art site.

A necessary evil sometimes.. a site so big that it's just lost it's identity & purpose to me.

"Wal-mart in real life for Tokka is a necessary evil.. a corporation so big globally, hypocritical and corrupt    - i can't stand it, can't stand what they STAND for, can't stand their environmental record, hate how they treat their employees.

Yet there is a big store just a 3 min. bike ride from where i love and i shop there. The people on the night staff know me and are kind to me,it's the grocery store most of the time, and it's mostly in my budget.

A hypocrit it makes me tho' as the Company it also retains this "Mixed-blessing" status as i've needed it for necessities  and the good people that work there just for the social level the past decade i've lived over here."

D.A. also becomes a mixed blessing as it is a place to drop art and prints, the people and friends on here are important to me.

But it's also become a burden anymore. I'm tired of the past several years of harassment, the jumping of conclusions by smart ass D.A. staffers ( the GOOD ones excluded ), back-stabbing, exclusion and shunning of my work, and the ultimate mass-Popularity contest this place has become.

I'm ill of D.A. sending me their f8cking emails telling me to buy their sh3tty products,plastic, and dolls. And i'm sick of the relative lack of community i've been able to find.

It's all a continual slap in the face. My cheeks are purple and bruised and are going numb by now.

I guess it's ok in the long run to drop off art and share the best i can - but under the guise of which i used to ACTUALLY PAY THEM MONEY FOR A PREMIUM SUBSCRIPTION :: WASTED MONEY THAT NEVER PAID OFF !!

Premium membership includes bullsh7t features i rarely used or were unimportant tools as a whole. Nothing effective,  nothing gained but anxiety and stress, and nothing to help my exposure in art in any capacity.

The f8cking print account hasn't even paid for itself. Barely even 3 people have used it the 5 years i've had the thing so. Well i'll still keep submitting prints because i paid for it. Seems fruitless tho'.

Whatever.. i don't want to turn this post into another "DA SUCKS SH8T-FEST" .. i'll make do with what i have now, and i shall not submit anymore money to D.A. unless i can get something back. The money they have leached out of me over the years is enough to jade me for weeks.

I'll do my best to focus on :

No more nervous breakdowns over lack of feed back or harassment by D.A. staffers.

No more popularity contests - my work is unique and apparently powerful and interesting on it's own and it's getting better every single day. I can't keep up with these rich, flashy , solely digital artists with all their  fancy bells and whistles. N' i  don't fuggin' need to. I make do with what little i got.. and i have a cult following commending me for me for the mix of traditional, digital and hybrid work i do so fuck D.A.'s "THESE ARTIST ARE BETTER THAN YOU, TOKKA - YOU DON'T MATTER SO FUCK YOU BECAUSE YOU AIN'T AS RICH AND FLASHY AS THEY ARE !!" .. B.S.  

I'll try to focus on the open minded people who love me and my work and support me. that's the only real reason to keep contributing here.

Not gona beg, plead and humiliate myself anymore .. asking - hoping to negative effects for approval or feedback. If it happens it happens  .. and i'll have to just contend and be content with whatever i get here.

So thank you positive people here  - - to fuckin' hell with all you negative motherf7ckers - i got a middle finger too , douche bags.

And thank you for baring with me.

I may be "crazy" .. but i am not stupid.   I'm sincere too when i say i appreciate you.

** I have to turn off comments for now on all new submissions. I'm sorry .. too overwhelmed to dissect and keep perspective on commentary : positive, negative, and down right insulting.

Also i  am overloaded in my inbox. I've been so disillusioned on this site i barely cared if i checked messages and comments or nor.

So not right now. Have to keep commentary to a minimum.

Please understand, thanks.

~ t